There were days when...

There were days when ...
Everything was going well.
I am trying to hide what it's called depression,
And fake a smile just for the good impression.
I am what you see and you know I am,
And I can not be different.
I ask for your patience, saying that it hurts.

There were days when everything was going well.
Honestly I didn't wanted them to end...
Now even if it's hard for me,
I'll always have you in my mind.

My tears are hiding.
Thousands words unspoken,
Time turned in cold seconds..
You're still present..

Unrealistic hopes and dreams were consumed,
In false ideals they turned,
You became absent..

I've believed in you
You did just what you wanted.
And maybe you loved me, but to show me you did not know how.
You've hurt me so many times, like I didn't even existed..
Maybe I didn't cared if I didn't loved you.

You've hurt me because you was the first who turned the back on me
Instead of being with me, being the one to remove my tears.
You've ran away when it was hard,
Though you was the one who said
"No matter what others say",
This time it mattered..

But whatever you are..
Looks like you forgot
All the beautiful moments
We have made..

I was once in your game.
But I have been left in confusion..

Think yourself what you want out of life,
Think yourself if you can face it,
As you're away from me now...

Toys.

When the night comes on the window,
The childrens must sleep.
Let's say bed time toy stories..
In their candy stripe box,
Dwarves stand immovable.
A fairy gives her hand to the
Prince and everyone is happy...

And from Heaven I'Il crown the
Mysterious moon.
Where stars gather
No number above the sky.

The flame in her room
Seems beautiful as a dream.

And it enters the room
Even the window is not open...

And in the morning comes alive
A heroes story.
We sit in silence and wait.
Play, and with
Each toy,
Her entire universe
It has soul and is alive.

Only the mature ones doesn't understand.

... fucked mind.

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01.02.2011

It happens.. always.. they use you.. then they.. they throw you away.. like you’re a broken toy..
In fact.. why would they care.. ?
All they do is lie.. cuz.. lies lives in them…
They spit on you.. they put you in dirt…
It’s normal…
They have th world at their legs…
You’re nothing but a fly in their eyes…
They are mean…
Reasons… ? Never…
Hatred.
Pain.
Tears.
All lies.
As days goes by I start to realize that.. I don’t have what to do here... I am here waiting for nothing.. Hoping for nothing.. Crying for nothing.. Hurting for nothing.. Nobody cares… Nobody knows…
I trust in my self-righteous suicide.. I cry…
Fables..
I’m such a fool..
It’s all my fault…
I shold have never…

It doesn’t matter anymore…

WAR. In two [ wrote on 8.02.2011 ]

You are my good thought
When I hide in smoke.
And maybe I'll have with you one final way...
And I say that if everything crashes,
If I'm with you, I'll have it all.
When they all forget about me,
I fly, you understand me, squeeze me, and I warm up.
You make me believe that is so hard to lose.
You're the one who always answers.
When asking for backup, the non-hidden.
The one who makes be sun when it rains.
The one who takes me into a new era.
You're the bandage with which I heal my wounds..
When I bleed, fell on the ground, half dead,
You make me get up and shake the dust.
I clench my teeth and I'm ready for a new fight.
You are my companion when I hang on by a thread..
In this battle called life.
You're the voice I hear when everything is quiet around.
When everything else has gone,
When the lines were drawn,
And they gave other verdicts..
Other sentences..
Other wishes.
You bring me to normal when I turn upside down.
And I might not show it, but it would be so hard
Without you. Would be just a simple me...
You are my smile in a dark night.
When after a dawn.. light is all gone.

Dust on the road.

When I shake myself, I say...
There's noone to collect me.
In any war is easier in two.

Don't say now that the feelings are dead.

And now.. the armor fell.. the naked eyes shed rain...
Feelings are stained with mud and then pour...
Memories turned into undead...
My mouth will howl.. My hands will shake.
That's my war with the world.

And you'll be just one, always.

And when the sun and the moon will fall from the sky,
You'll still be the one.

Maybe I'm wrong, maybe it's not you.
Maybe or maybe not... do I fool myself?


Even if there are storms, snow, sun and rain
In any war is easier in two...